"So what's happening in your life M?" frågade Mandy ner vi gick ner för 5th Avenue i New York. Vi hade varit och tittat på den nya lägenheten Leah och jag skulle dela om några veckor. Det var igentligen mening att vi skulle flytta in några dagar före nyår, men varken jag eller Leah (Som flög hit för 2 dar sen) har inte hunnit fara och kolla på några möbler. Det var nyår idag och jag, mamma och pappa skulle äta middag med familjen Jonas och senare på kvällen så skulle jag och Mandy på fest hos hennes pojkväns komisar.

"Life's pretty good actually. Or well. This month has been pretty stressed and all, but it's fine now"

"Stressed? What stresses you Mia?"

"Oh you know, i'm just confused. I mean with the new apartment and everything"

"Really?" Mandy stannade upp och mig i armen.

"Yes"

"Okey" sa hon. "Mia remember. I'm here if you wanna talk about anything... or a certain someone?"

Jag släppte henens arm. "What? Mandy!!"

Hon skrattade.

"Just kidding, I know that you'd tell me if its about a boy"

Shit.

"Yea-h haha of co. Of course. I mean." sa jag snabbt.

Mandy tittade på mig med en läskig blick och tog tag i min arm igen. "So who is he?"

"Mandy!!"

"Mia, you can't lie to my face"

Mandy såg nu på mig med en min som jag inte kunde lista ut om den var seriös eller oseriös.
Men det var något är i mungiporna som såg ut som ett flin.
Hon var min vän. Kanske var det dax att berätta.

"You know..."

"There she goes" sa Mandy glatt "Tell me about the boy"

"Actually there's .. two"

"TWO??!! Whoa girl...wait let's sit down"

Hon drog mig mot café Dante. Eller rättare sagt, nästan slet sönder min arm.
När vi kom in så knuffade hon ner mig på stolen vid hörnbordet.

"Continue" sa hon.

Jag stirrade på henne. "Whoa"

"I said continue"

"Okey chill. Remember when I said that I met the Jonases in London?"

"You're not dating Eric again. Are you?"

"For god's sake Mandy. No i'm not dating Eric"

"Puh" sa hon. "I was almost worried. Yeah so you met the J crew. What more?"

"Eric and the boys had already met earlier, so they kinda knew eachother, so they invited us over for dinner at their hotel.

"YOU HOOKED UP WITH A HOTEL WAITER, OR A HANDSOME BUSINESSMAN?"
Jag suckade.

"No Mandy, I did not hook up with a waiter or a handsome businessman"

"Then get to the dirty part. This sucks"

Jag suckade och fortsatte att berätta min lilla historia.

"So then everything went kinda fast, and then suddenly. I was alone in a room with Joe"'

"Joe?..Joe as in Jonas?"

"Yes. Joe as in Joe Jonas" sa jag långsamt.

Mandy klarnade upp.

"WAIT!!!!! YOU SLEPT WITH JOE JONAS?? WHILE YOU WERE WITH ERIC? GIRL YOU NASTY!!"
Jag vände mig om för att se om någon i cafét reagerade. Som tur va så gjorde ingen det.

"Mandy!! I'm not sure if the entire CAFÉ can hear you. Shut up. I did not sleep with Joe"

"So you didn't sleep with him. But you kissed him right?"

"Kinda but"

"OH MY GOD MIA! YOU KISSED JOE JONAS"

"No, he kissed me"

"But you kissed him back"

"Not really"

Mandy tittade chockat på mig

"You didn't kiss him? But Mia, isn't this what you always wanted..?"

"No Mandy. That's what I wanted 2 years ago"

Mandy satte sin hand på sitt huvud och tittade mig i ögonen.

"So Joseph Jonas, whom youve been in love with for like... forever? Kissed you voluntarily and you said no"

"I pushed him away"

"YOU PUSHED HIM?"

"And yelled him in his face"

"YELLED HIM IN HIS FACE?"

Jag nickade.

"Oh my gosh Mia, you're so fucked up right now..."

"What else coulde i've done?" sa jag små irriterat "I was engaged to another boy who in that second was in the same building as me, waiting for me to come down. And..the story isn't over ye-"

"So wait" avbröt Mandy mig. "Is that why you and Eric broke up in the first place, cause' he found out about you and Joe"

"No" sa jag. " First, there wasn't anything between Joe and I back then. And second. We still broke up because Eric cheated on me"

"Wait, this is too confusing M. so who's the boyfrien-?"

"So after I found out about Eric the Jonases were comforting me, and then he kissed me and everything went ..
wrong" Jag tittade ner i bordet

"HE KISSED YOU AGAIN?"

Precis då så kom en servitör och frågade vad vi ville beställa.

"Oh um lemon ice water" sa jag snabbt.

"Same" sa Mandy utan att vända blicken från mig"

När servitören hade gått så sa hon "Mia, did he kiss you again?"

"Again? What ? No"

"But..a Jonas.. So a Jonas who wasn't Joe kissed you..?"

"Yes"

"So.. wait. It wasn't Nick right?"

"Ew no, incest"

Jag försökte skratta. Men Mandy skrattade inte.

"So.. So it was.."

"Yes" avbröt jag henne "It was Kevin"

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"So you are dating Kevin Jonas JR?"

"Well, I think so"

"But you're in love with Joe?"

"I do have some feelings for him"

Jag hade berättat hela historian för Mandy. Hur jag hamnade i situationen jag är i nu.

"And Joe is in love with you"

"That's what he said"

"Whoa.. Just Mia. You have 2 world famous popstars fighting for you"

"They're not fighting"

"Well practically"

Vi satt på en parkbänk i Central Park.

"So , who are you in love with?"

Frågade hon mig med ett flin.

"I love them both"

Mandy suckade. "Not like that idiot. Ok well if we rephrase the question. Who do you wanna be with?" frågade hon som om hon redan visste svaret.

Jag öppnade min mun för att säga 'Jag vet inte" men hon avbröt mig.

"I know it's Joe"

Jag sa ingenting, och hon tog min tystnad som ett 'ja'.

"So what are you gonna do?"

"I don't know"

"Oh gosh Mia....."

"Okey okey , Joe. I said it. I wanna be with Joe."

Jag trodde knappt att jag sa det. Under de här senaste veckorna så har jag knappt kunnat erkänna det för mig själv, och nu så sitter jag här brevid Mandy , och berättar ... allt.

"That's what I thought, but what are you gonna do with Kev?"

Det sög till i magen. "I don't know Mandy. I fucking don't know what to do"

Mandy tittade mig i ögonen.

"I love him so much it's crazy. I can't even pretend to be mad at him. When i'm talking or just looking at him, my body goes warm..But i can't hurt Kevin. He's too nice"

"Mia.. Mia.. You have to listen to your own mind. And do what you want to do instead of doing what everyone else want you to do"

"Believe me Mandy, i'm trying. But they're like my brothers. I can't see neither of them hurt."

Mandy ställde sig upp.

"Where are you going?" frågade jag henne.

"We're going shopping"

"Shopping?"

"Yes we have to find you a killer dress for the party tonight"

"Oh..key..?"

"You have a busy night pretty lady. We're gonna find you a perfect dress, and you're breaking up with Kevin"

"Tonight?"

"Yes tonight"